I live in an amazing house surrounded by beautiful things but I’m not happy.
I meet people online for cyber sex, but never feel satisfied. It feels like there’s a hunger inside of me that can never be sated.
I work hard and earn good money, but get no buzz from the tasks or the rewards. My parents regularly tell me that I’m shallow and spoilt. All I know is that nothing I have is ever enough.
I was married for a couple of years but soon got bored of my husband. Planning our lavish wedding was fun – that kept me occupied for a year.
And then touring the world on our extended honeymoon was challenging but everything went a bit flat after that. Being at home with him 24/7 became boring.
Admittedly he did most of the cooking and cleaning but I found the tedium of day-to-day domestic drudgery dull.
He suggested starting a family but I couldn’t be bothered. He eventually left calling me an “ungrateful nightmare” and he was probably right.
I’ve been through a string of lovers since then. I’ve bedded young guys, old guys, rich ones and paupers. I’ve picked up weirdoes in the street and (before lockdown) even flew to New York for a one-night stand with a millionaire.
I constantly buy clothes and gadgets and end up tossing them aside. Everything disappoints.
It’s pretty obvious that “stuff” doesn’t make you happy. It doesn’t matter how many pairs of shoes or handbags you buy, the initial buzz lasts precisely five minutes before you lose interest.
You enjoyed planning your wedding and intricate honeymoon, but once the champagne stopped fizzing you were bored again. Your ex-husband tried to make a go of things but even his good nature wasn’t enough for you to stick with him.
Now you find yourself all alone in your gilded cage surrounded by your trinkets. If anything they’re beginning to annoy and overwhelm you.
So why don’t you have a massive clear out and get rid of the lot?
Clear your house and your mind and start again.
I suspect you’re underemployed. I think you need to start helping others and giving back. Life needs to b ecome more worthwhile and less selfish.
Would you consider volunteering and giving of your time and money? Which charities in your area could do with a helping hand? What are the passions and projects that speak to you and are close to your heart?
I fear that unless you haul yourself out of your rut and change your habits, then you’ll continue to sink.
Surprise your family and friends by striking out in a completely different direction – one that helps others while feeding your soul.