Ruth Langsford has bravely opened up on her sister's tragic death last year and revealed how she personally coped with the grief.
The This Morning presenter, 60, lost her sister Julia Johnson in 2019 after the 62-year-old took her own life in the June.
This month Ruth is the cover star for Prima magazine and has opened up on losing her older sister.
Ruth told the publication: "It still feels like yesterday that I lost my sister. When you lose somebody, it’s just horrible.
"But when someone takes their own life, it leaves you with so many questions that can’t be answered.
"It was tragic and difficult for all of us, but my sister wanted me to live a happy life."
The presenter continued: "I’m lucky that I have a loving husband and a good family, and all I can do is live a happy life in her memory."
On finding her inner strength, Ruth told the publication that you "can't spend your whole life crying".
She said: "You can’t spend your whole life crying. I’ve done a lot of crying over my sister.
"It’s not even a sense of saying, 'Pull yourself together and get back to work,' it’s just that you have to get on with your life and you can’t get on with it if you’re crying all day."
Ruth added: "I’ve learned now that I can have those moments; sometimes, I have a good old cry in the shower and feel better for it.
"I think it’s good to have a loud, snotty cry."
In November of last year, an inquest heard how Julia was found hanged in the garage of her family home in Lingfield, Surrey.
Her body was discovered by her husband Paul, who had been away from home at the time visiting their daughter.
After trying to get in touch with her multiple times while he was away, he became so worried that he decided to come home early and was tragically the one who found her.
The inquest heard how she had been suffering with depression.
Julia was declared dead at 1.37am on June 16, 2019 by South East Coast Ambulance Service paramedics just two minutes after they arrived at the home.
The coroner ruled that Julia's death was suicide after hearing that she had been suffering from depression – but a psychiatrist had been improving greatly.
It's reported that she did not leave a suicide note for her family and friends.
Despite suffering with mental health issues for years, it was decided that Julia was "settled" and her appointments were reduced to every six months.
A post-mortem examination confirmed Julia wasn't under the influence of drugs or alcohol when she died.
Read the full interview with Ruth Langsford in the October issue of Good Housekeeping, on sale the 4th September. It is available in all supermarkets and online at MagsDirect
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